Been meaning to blog.. but each time that I think that I will... I end up way to lazy to do anything. So much for trying to make this a productive week. Can't believe that time is flying by so quickly.. soon it will be time for emo Noelle to come back and deal with all the assignments and exams.. and its not gonna be a pretty sight. Time flying by also means growing older.. we grow older by the day.. by the minute... BY THE SECOND. I don't think I'm ready to grow up yet.. these are supposed to be our prime years, coz as you know its all down hill when u hit 30. Even your brain speed decreases once you hit your 30's.
Well, I guess I have the Singapore trip to look forward to in the near future. BUT annoying thing is... I still haven't booked my air tickets... and the prices are no longer looking oh so pretty. In fact, I don't think i'm saving very much at all. I wished I booked when I said I was definite on going. But I'm still saving about $400, which includes a return Singapore airlines flight to Penang. That saving better not disappear.. which means I REALLY REALLY need to book soon.
Hmm.. why am I sitting here blogging while I'm at uni?! Shouldn't I be studying? Meh, I'll do it when I get home.... home from going out tonite that is =p
Nah, no late night tonite, just off to utopia to check out the first rounds of the karaoke comp. I hope its good. But guilt is definately kicking in.. guilt from lack of progress... number of assignments started = 0, number of mid-sems studied for = 0 ... really better get a move on.
Okay I think Mish has finished her assignment now, the one that productive Lisa finished at 1am in the morning (claps to Lisa)... time to go... will blog on my facial trip next time .....
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Saturday, August 25, 2007
The Art
The melancholy tunes of Jay Chou flood the house... 如果難過請你忘記我... drowned by the intensity of his skill
I admire singers, musicians and artists in general, as they represent the ability to succeed. The ability to chase for those dreams.. using skill that u have and just knew your were born to use, born to share.. born to enlighten. But for many of us, we are just confused as to what our skill is meant to be. What is it that motivates me? You see singers/songwriters work endlessly to create the perfect masterpiece.. but what is it that is able to make them place all that effort into what they are doing..perfecting... even if it means no sleep for days. Its the love for the art, the passion and dedication to the art and what it means to others around the world.
Sometimes I don't think songwriters get enough recognition, because what is a song without a story.. a melody with no depth. They are a crucial element to the success of an artist.. particularly one who does not have the skill of story writing but with the gift of a voice, a voice that is able to paint the colours of the story..
HmmmM.. I know I am quite incoherent today... wondering where I am trying to go with my words.. I guess I'm just curious as to what will drive me.. what will keep me awake days on end and still give me enough effort to perfect. In a way, I anticipate it.. anticipate the art and what it will mean to me
I admire singers, musicians and artists in general, as they represent the ability to succeed. The ability to chase for those dreams.. using skill that u have and just knew your were born to use, born to share.. born to enlighten. But for many of us, we are just confused as to what our skill is meant to be. What is it that motivates me? You see singers/songwriters work endlessly to create the perfect masterpiece.. but what is it that is able to make them place all that effort into what they are doing..perfecting... even if it means no sleep for days. Its the love for the art, the passion and dedication to the art and what it means to others around the world.
Sometimes I don't think songwriters get enough recognition, because what is a song without a story.. a melody with no depth. They are a crucial element to the success of an artist.. particularly one who does not have the skill of story writing but with the gift of a voice, a voice that is able to paint the colours of the story..
HmmmM.. I know I am quite incoherent today... wondering where I am trying to go with my words.. I guess I'm just curious as to what will drive me.. what will keep me awake days on end and still give me enough effort to perfect. In a way, I anticipate it.. anticipate the art and what it will mean to me
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
.. where did the day go?
Today was meant to be a productive day.. whoops i forgot to enlarge the word MEANT.
But instead, what did it end up turning into:
But instead, what did it end up turning into:
- Woke up late (even though I slept quite early last night)
- Procrastinated the morning/afternoon away by laying in my bed thinking about Singapore plans and watched a episode of a K-Drama (yer Jase I said K-Drama!)
- Went shopping at Gal, just briefly while I waited for mummy... don't worry, I didn't buy .... that MUCH heheh kidding.. I seriously didn't.
- Procrastinated the evening away by attempting to play around with Photoshop.. trying to find a big enough photo of Jae Joong to put in next to Mishie (didn't find one.. gave up)
- Been on here since god-knows-when MSN-ing and obviously now blogging (it was the better of the alternatives posed to me by Lisa)
YuP.. i think that pretty much explain how productive my day was. I know I've complained about this a million times or so.. but I'm sOOOO behind.. and I have no motivation to do anything about it. Even though I know how close mid-sems are.. even though I know how close my assignments are due from the date of my mid-sems and even though I know I'm going to regret not doing anything one month from now =/ Someone please.. smack some senses into me.. but do it lightly please..
I think I need a new pair of shoes.. Sketches maybe.. Still thinking, but not time for shopping. No time for serious shopping that is. oOO but i did stumble on a pretty cool pair of cons.. I wouldn't mine owning a pair of these =)
Wouldn't it be so cool to be wearing a pair of these to a Rain concert? heheh
*sigh* on another note..I don't know why.. but today.. I feel like crap.. Like physically, emotionally, spiritually feel like crap. I feel as if all the energy has been drained from me.. and I'm scared to say it.. but I feel anhedonic. Maybe I've just come to realise how confused I am about my direction in life.. I really dont know where I'm going and what I'm going to do. I just see myself as such a dependent person.. and right now.. I just don't know what to do? Sometimes I wish time would freeze for a while.. just for a while, so I can think.. think about the pathways in front of me and what is really most important. My mind is clouded by a sea of insecurities.. a sea so endless it shocks me out of reality...
...or maybe I just need to wake up tomorro and make a fresh new start. A productive one.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
*Cough Cough*
That's all I do theses days .. cough and cough and cough.. and if I'm finding it so annoying imagine the people around. I feel like a frikken walking disease and feel sorry for all those sitting near me. For example waiting for the bus today... I was waiting at Wellington Bus station for the bus home (which by the way took a whole 45mins!!!) and just when I thought all was good and peaceful.. I get into a coughing fit!! Like I just can't stop coughing.. it was so bad and so embarrassing.. even the girl next to me felt sorry for me and offered me a butter menthol. And it happened again on the bus.. I thought I was going to choke. Okay, enough of the sob story...
Today was meant to be a productive day.. but turned out not so productive.. in fact i didn't any study at all. Its only scaring me coz I know I will be extremely busy in September, when all the assignments start piling up and a worker leaves for a holiday, meaning I will have to pick up the shifts. Lets just hope everything goes well then.
I dug up my old ICQ number yesterday. Actually I attempted to do this some time ago.. but I could never actually find my number or my profile on the ICQ database. Thanks to the help of Tim, who had me on his contact list, I was finally able to access my old list. I remember in the prime of my ICQ days I had approx 200 contact on there.. most of them randoms from around the world that I had slowly gotten to know. Some of them, I became quite good friends with. ICQ marked my teeny-bopper days. I read my profile yesterday and BOY was I ashamed.. but I guess its all a part of being young, naive and attempting to try way too hard. But I am curious as to what happened to a lot of the people on my list. People like "Cloud", who were a little bit older and wiser and shared the wisdom and experiences they had in life. These people who were once very much a part of my life, have seemed to drift.. and I wonder how they are today.
I guess it just reminds us to cherish what we have now.. make an effort to show the people around you that you care... even if its a short sms one morning just to wish them a good day.
Goodnight everyone.. Happy Dreaming ^-^
Today was meant to be a productive day.. but turned out not so productive.. in fact i didn't any study at all. Its only scaring me coz I know I will be extremely busy in September, when all the assignments start piling up and a worker leaves for a holiday, meaning I will have to pick up the shifts. Lets just hope everything goes well then.
I dug up my old ICQ number yesterday. Actually I attempted to do this some time ago.. but I could never actually find my number or my profile on the ICQ database. Thanks to the help of Tim, who had me on his contact list, I was finally able to access my old list. I remember in the prime of my ICQ days I had approx 200 contact on there.. most of them randoms from around the world that I had slowly gotten to know. Some of them, I became quite good friends with. ICQ marked my teeny-bopper days. I read my profile yesterday and BOY was I ashamed.. but I guess its all a part of being young, naive and attempting to try way too hard. But I am curious as to what happened to a lot of the people on my list. People like "Cloud", who were a little bit older and wiser and shared the wisdom and experiences they had in life. These people who were once very much a part of my life, have seemed to drift.. and I wonder how they are today.
I guess it just reminds us to cherish what we have now.. make an effort to show the people around you that you care... even if its a short sms one morning just to wish them a good day.
Goodnight everyone.. Happy Dreaming ^-^
Monday, August 13, 2007
Monday-itis
.. been a whole week since I've been on here spillin my thoughts. So what's been happening? SooO much that i don't know where to how to start... so I won't. =p
Been sick since Friday morning after a late/early night out for Lisa's birthday on Thursday. And as I said.. I knew it would be interesting. Pictures soon or u can get them on Lisa's blog coz I think she'll upload them (hehehe saves my lazy bum the effort).
But yes. SICK. AGAIN. I've been coughing so much that I think its damaging my throat and my chest at that. It's never hurt so much before. That the good thing about blogging I guess.. I can rant without having to cough after every 3rd word. Today was such a LOOOOONG day (no puns intended) but I guess everything turned out okay in the end. I didn't actually get to finish my tute questions yesterday, so I kinda rocked up to both my tutes unprepared. It turned out alright coz we didn't really go thru all the questions and this week's questions were not to hard.. so all good.
Bummed at Nicole's during my 3 hour break and attempted to rest up before the rest of my classes, but instead ended up playing around with music there. Very cool fun.. and OMG Nic's skills on the guitar is soOo cool!! I wish I could play like you Nic!.. I have so far to go and so much to learn.
I'm so behind on everything its starting to be a worry... its like I just woke up and *Poof* its week 4!!! I think its time to get a start on a.) Readings b.) Assignments. Speaking of assignments, I think my psych one for social shall be somewhat interesting. We are to examine the underlying psychological factors that allow people to keep believing in a chosen alternative therapy. After considering many options including crystal power and numerology.. I have settled on.... astrotherapy. Just coz everyone knows they love reading horoscopes.. but how far should we really take our horoscopes.
I think I'm off to get some rest.. coz u know sounding sick means feeling sick and feeling sick means looking sick and looking sick .. is oh so not cool!
Been sick since Friday morning after a late/early night out for Lisa's birthday on Thursday. And as I said.. I knew it would be interesting. Pictures soon or u can get them on Lisa's blog coz I think she'll upload them (hehehe saves my lazy bum the effort).
But yes. SICK. AGAIN. I've been coughing so much that I think its damaging my throat and my chest at that. It's never hurt so much before. That the good thing about blogging I guess.. I can rant without having to cough after every 3rd word. Today was such a LOOOOONG day (no puns intended) but I guess everything turned out okay in the end. I didn't actually get to finish my tute questions yesterday, so I kinda rocked up to both my tutes unprepared. It turned out alright coz we didn't really go thru all the questions and this week's questions were not to hard.. so all good.
Bummed at Nicole's during my 3 hour break and attempted to rest up before the rest of my classes, but instead ended up playing around with music there. Very cool fun.. and OMG Nic's skills on the guitar is soOo cool!! I wish I could play like you Nic!.. I have so far to go and so much to learn.
I'm so behind on everything its starting to be a worry... its like I just woke up and *Poof* its week 4!!! I think its time to get a start on a.) Readings b.) Assignments. Speaking of assignments, I think my psych one for social shall be somewhat interesting. We are to examine the underlying psychological factors that allow people to keep believing in a chosen alternative therapy. After considering many options including crystal power and numerology.. I have settled on.... astrotherapy. Just coz everyone knows they love reading horoscopes.. but how far should we really take our horoscopes.
I think I'm off to get some rest.. coz u know sounding sick means feeling sick and feeling sick means looking sick and looking sick .. is oh so not cool!
Monday, August 6, 2007
Cold, Wet and at Uni
Today has started off as quite a bad day. Woke up at 6:35. I know, I bet U all can't believe I woke up so early. Got up, had my shower, I even had "breakfast" ( I had a banana) and ran out to catch the bus to uni. I thought I'd be warm today, wearing my YS long jumper thing and a cardigan underneath.. but boy was I wrong! As soon as I stepped out of my front door, rain couldn't help but follow me (sorry guys.. just had to put it that way). It poured, and even though the bus stop is like 2 minutes from my house, I managed to get fully drenched. To top it off the bus was PACKED and I felt disgusting sitting in a squishy position on the back of the bus with my jeans so wet they were beginning to stick to my skin. OoOO and that wasn't the worst bit.. I think the seat I was sitting on was wet!! either that or the rain that my jumper soaked up had transferred onto my seat making my butt wet!.. Quite disturbing really and utterly uncomfortable.
But I saw Bradley on the bus today, just casually talking to him about uni life etc. the poor thing has classes starting at 9am everyday .. everyday except one.. which starts at 8am hehehe.
After getting off the bus at uni, I felt so sick.. "throwing up" sick.. I think it was because it was so packed and stuffy, while I was still drenched. So I went straight to the Reid before my tute.. off to the toilets. HAHA I dried myself off with the hand dryer... or at least attempted to.
Now, I am somewhat dry.. and on my 3 hour break. I kinda wanna go to the city to pick up something.. well find something that I need.. sorry bout the abstract-ness, I can't say what it is coz Lisa reads this hehehe.. am I building the suspense yet Lisa?
I should really be attempting to do my tute right now. It's at 3, so I still have time. Can't believe I wasted all yesterday. Instead of doing my tute work what was I doing... FACEBOOK?!? and laundry and work and TV.
Okay enough, I better get to it and finish before I go off to procrastinate with Caz later today =)
Mite blog back later today? We'll see...
But I saw Bradley on the bus today, just casually talking to him about uni life etc. the poor thing has classes starting at 9am everyday .. everyday except one.. which starts at 8am hehehe.
After getting off the bus at uni, I felt so sick.. "throwing up" sick.. I think it was because it was so packed and stuffy, while I was still drenched. So I went straight to the Reid before my tute.. off to the toilets. HAHA I dried myself off with the hand dryer... or at least attempted to.
Now, I am somewhat dry.. and on my 3 hour break. I kinda wanna go to the city to pick up something.. well find something that I need.. sorry bout the abstract-ness, I can't say what it is coz Lisa reads this hehehe.. am I building the suspense yet Lisa?
I should really be attempting to do my tute right now. It's at 3, so I still have time. Can't believe I wasted all yesterday. Instead of doing my tute work what was I doing... FACEBOOK?!? and laundry and work and TV.
Okay enough, I better get to it and finish before I go off to procrastinate with Caz later today =)
Mite blog back later today? We'll see...
Friday, August 3, 2007
That Girl
A part of me can't help but realise that I've become THAT GIRL. The type of girl who cannot hold a conversation with anyone. The one that, when is in a big group of people, realises that people to the left and people to the right are engrossed in a conversation... but stares straight ahead. I feel so anti-social... What scares me is the thought of going into a job interview and being the way that I am... the interviewer will be sure to realise what a boring person I am... and I'll never get hired. I wonder... have I always been like this?
I'm SoOOO Tired today and really does not feel like going to uni for classes. And my feet hurt especially. I went to MSU's Function last night... rating: 2/5. It was okay at times but I didn't really like half the music and it was WAY too empty there for my likings. But I guess I don't regret going.
OKays, must at least attempt to be productive today. So I'm going to get ready to get my blood sucked out of me (Blood Test). But b4 I finish this post I want to say...
I'm SoOOO Tired today and really does not feel like going to uni for classes. And my feet hurt especially. I went to MSU's Function last night... rating: 2/5. It was okay at times but I didn't really like half the music and it was WAY too empty there for my likings. But I guess I don't regret going.
OKays, must at least attempt to be productive today. So I'm going to get ready to get my blood sucked out of me (Blood Test). But b4 I finish this post I want to say...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAMMY!!
Hope ya have a great day =)
Side note:
My Posts are getting shorter and shorter aye.. sorry.. haven't had the inspiration for a good long blog yet.
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