Sorry my dearest blog... I've been away and back and yet did not leave a footprint. I would love to promise that I will blog more but I shall make no promises that I am certain I cannot keep. Today my heart hurts a little and I have only you to tell.
Ok ... so maybe its not a little.. but more like a lot. But I have not cried yet. Is it because crying will do me no good? I'm not sure quite. But so much pain and no tears. I'm a little worried. The reality of it is no one is ever at fault when it comes to matters of the heart or is that wishful thinking?
There is so much on my mind. But I really don't know how to express myself very well. I'm finding this to be the case more and more these days. Maybe that's why I haven't found a job yet. That and my five page resume? Tell me why is this so hard?
I wish that I didn't miss him so much. Because he probably doesn't miss me anymore. That's a stupid reason isn't it. But I'm sticking with it because I'm a stupid girl hehe.
I guess I no longer cross your mind anymore.
I pray that I will keep thinking I have nothing to regret... if one day I cannot maintain these thoughts... will you help me?
