Yesterdays and Tomorrows

So much has happened in the past week that its all becoming a blur. But last week seems so long ago... it seems like it was last month really.

I don't know where to start, but I've just got to say I'm really thankful for the people around me today.

Friday night was awesome ( I really have to stop using that word, its really starting to irritate me) and sublime. I don't have any pictures other than the ones that are already on facebook. It was quite a surprise really, even tho I already knew about the day before hand.. it was still a surprise, if that makes sense. MmmM Seju... jagers...corona shots. OOo and the cake.. it was sooo coool s2 love s2. And not to forget the best card eva!!!

Fel's way cool chocolate pistacio rain cake, with different flavored rain drops

To define the night.. rain, blue and white, clouds, hilarious, sublime, KTV, alcoholic, sparklers, cake, cam whoring, papers scissors rock, six, coolest card, screaming, party poppers, dirty pop, boy bands, food... LOVE.

Just really touched by how much effort everyone put in, particularly Lisa, coz I know U had sooooo many assignments at that time and still put in so much effort into the event. Heart.

It even rained that day =)

Then there was Nic and Su-Yen's Bday at Onyx. Hehehe.. all I can say is Nic was soooooooooooooooooooo hilarious. But I guess me and mish's shots contributed *high five*. heheh she kept taking off her shoes and leaving them on the floor for ppls to pick up and put back on her feet. V. funny.

In the space of the week I ate at hawker's twice (once on Friday and once on Saturday) and on both occasions had the sizzling tofu. It was good aye.

But now its time to turtle... to turtle and study hard. I know it will be quite a difficult time for everyone as during exam time morale is always quite low. But I'm going to try my best. Just remember that exams are a part of uni life, and you have to take the bitter to appreciate the sweeter things in life. AJA AJA HWAITING!!!

My mind is like a blank slate right now.. maybe because I've been putting this post off for so long. There's so much I wanted to share... but words just can explain..

沒有你們今天的我都不會站在這裡... 謝謝.

19+365days

I guess its traditional for all bloggers to do a post on their Birthday.. so following from tradition...

I was thinking about all the things that have happened this year.. just refecting.. so much has changed and yet.. its all the same. Don't know if thats good or bad but.. just yeah... reflecting.

I was gonna do a fully refeltion post ..... but.....

Kinda exhausted today so this shall only be a short post.

Today in one word was... AWESOME!

Even tho I was late to my first class/tute for the day.. it all worked out well =)

Had Dim Sum with what I initally thought was just nic.. turned out to be Nic, Jason, Cas and Mish.. yummm.... but soOOoooOO much food!!! Thanks guys for Dim Sum =)

And off to the rest of my classes where Tammy and I did the awesomest presentation everer!!.. we got 5/5 for it too woohoo! (omg tammy I forgot to cam whore with u!!!... ah well.. there's always next time)

And finally dinner with Yans.. it was good to catch up with her agains after sooo long.

All in all a very cruisy day.. just my style. Only thing that I could fault on is... it didnt rain =(

Thanks to everyone for the birthday wishes, calls and msgs.. much love

Shall leave u with some dim sum cam whoring yeah?

The girls, plus Jason behind the camera

The Mountain of food.... so much for we'll finish it *stares at Mish's direction*

..ummm I don't know them.. Kidding..with love =)

.. Me and Nic <-- The pro self camtographer...

Tis the season of... broke-ness

I really don't know why, but I seem to have been spending an awful lot this month! Not cool! After paying for the plane tickets, I thought I should really start saving for the spending money and all... progress on saving... negative numbers!

Its almost been two weeks without Lappy, and I cant believe I've made it this long.. what is more surprising is that I'm soo reliant on it. I guess I never realised how much I used it.. never realised how much I depended on it to be there for me.. never realised until it was taken from me. Got a call from the technicians working on Lappy, they said he should be healthy enough to go home soon.. either Monday or Tuesday.

What is another worry is he's doctor's bill, its going to cost me $240.. must've been a specialist doctor, but I do have the feeling I'm being ripped off. But lets not think about that.. its really eating up my Singapore savings.

And another item that has chosen to take my money.. Show Luo's Concert in Singapore! I'm kinda disappointed in the seat we got allocated .. didn't buy front row.. not even Category 2.. its CAT 3.. but oh well. Just glad to be concerting this year. Lets hope we can at least see properly in the seats we're given (row 26!!!.. gah.. that's so near the back).

Can't wait for Singapore.. the more I think about it.. the more excited I get..MmmMmm SHOPPING! hhehehe

Omg.. and Study = lack of progress too..I keep thinking that I have way more time than I really do.. Keep thinking that I can put it all off for one more day. Someone make me come to my senses...maybe tomorrow... hehehe

So if I've made so little progress this week.. what exactly have I been doing?... beats me aye! OoOo But i had dinner on Wednesday with Canh at Hanami in Beaufort Street. It's a nice little place.. U wouldn't even realise it was there, but for those who know how to hunt for the place U'd be pleasantly surprised with what is on offer. The place is quite bustling too.. I think it was almost full house by 6pm, not bad aye. Looking out the window that was lit with lanterns, it made u feel as if you were far away.. in another city.. in another world. It was a good catch-up seesh =) and made me realise how many cool little places are on Beaufort Street.. shall visit it soon.

.. That shall be all.. till another day, I end this with hope.. everything should be ended with hope.

From the wise words of Lee Hom...

... "Finally"

After endless months of procrastination and being pushed by endless questions.. I finally booked my Singapore trip. Dates now being confirmed just means a definate no DBSK concert for me this year.. *cries*.. I guess it wouldn't have been the same without "the eternal one" neways.

Flight there and back.. I must admitt.. was a BIT more costly than intially imagined when I was planning to go by tiger (when booking in early june?)... BUT.. yes i said BUT.. If I compare what I would have paid if I bought Tiger flight NOW VS what I paid for Singapore Air.. the saving would be a grand total of......... $20. I ended up paying $980, which is quite good for Singapore and Penang return.

So, I think I will just leave it at that... no more comparisions of would've/should've/could've..

So all is scheduled and my plans are all in place.. hehehe neone in Singapore at the end of Nov? LOL coz I will be! Okay.. I should stop rubbing it in nows.

Not really in the blogging mindset today so I think thats all for today.. Just wanted to notify u guys that I finally booked and make u guys realise how great of a procrastinator I am... but I'm sure u guys already knew that..

*sniff sniff* whats cooking?

So, after one night of no sleep (well one hour.. but that doesn count)... I decided to catch up on lost sleep. I got up at 1pm today, after 15 hours of sleep ( thats the average Ms. Mariah Carey gets). Anyways, i decided to make pizza today.. as i said i would during my assignment mania days.

I had a craving for home cooked pizza the other day so i thought.. hey i mite make a few so that everyone can have some... if u lived close enuff i mite send you some... but too bad.. most of u's are way too far!

It took me all day today to make the damn dough.. it had to sit to rise for a total of 2 hours, so I ran to take lappy to the doctors during the wait. So now.. I am laptop -less. After 9 months of wireless net in the comfort of my own bedroom, i am now left to resort to the main old comp.

Anyways back to my pizZa.. but the time i got home, it was ready to decorate.. I have pictures

...befores...

And then into the oven it goes...I think it put a bit too much topping on them...

..afters...

But I think I went a little over board...

Ending up with 5 pizzas.... so anyone feel like pizZa?

Free.dom

I sit here before u all... after 2148 words, after one extremely bad maccas cappuccino, after APA format referencing 17 journal articles, after attempting to reduce the word, after succeeding in cutting all of 1 word, after 1.25 hours of sleep and after one hour in traffic..... I sit here free....

I'm freeeeEeeEEE.. free .. no more uni assignments for me, well that is excluding the presentation that Tammy and I have to give in a few weeks.. FREE... well excluding the 6 days a week work shifts that I am still doing.... Free.. excluding exams that are approaching faster than I've realised (timetable = 13, 14, 15, 16 of Nov)... freeee?.. okay so not so free... but U get the point rite!

Yes, I'm at uni right now about 30 mins till my class starts.. but I haven't done my tute work =/ not cool... I've skipped the past week of uni to "manage my time more effectively"... i guess that didn't really make sense, but yes.. this week shall be for playing catch up.

Regrets.. not going to Spring Feast <-- heard it was awesome.. more regrets but not as much <-- not going to Asia Cocktail.... MAJOR REGRETS <-- not bringing a camera to Talent night, but I shall attempt to scrounge up fotos for u all.

For everyone else who has assignments due today.. I know who u are , hope u guys manage to get it all done in time. JIA YOU!!!!!! AJA AJA FIGHTING!!

I think I'll go find somewhere to sleep now, shall blog about Talent night soon... seems so like it was sooo long ago...

so close yet so far

.. 2 more days and 700 words till i'm done with assignments... the end is near.. and the freedom is in sight!

.. 2 or more days till I shall blog about my 2 weeks in isolation and the talent night =)

.. Just 2 more days... I can make it rite?!?

empty

.. I tried.. but I'm sorry... I couldn't help it.. they just flooded back to me. I thought I had it all under control, I thought things were different, I thought I could change.. but nothing.. I'm left empty.

How could it all just fade.. feels a million eyes are watching me.. poking at my insecurities.. so cold.. I'm scared .. I let it all slip .. the residue of sand on my fingertips..but behind these eyes are... empty.