Summer Holidays

Few more days and summer holidays will be over. It's strange to think that we've already been on holidays for an entire 3 months already.. coz it seems as if the holidays just started yesterday. But these holidays I can actually feel that I have done something in my time off, made use of the chances given to us as students. Although it may not be much, I feel a slight change in my attitude towards uni life. It took me 3 years of uni-ing to say this.. I love being a student. I mean when else would you be given months off just to relax after a set of exams. So, the aim is to cheirsh the time I have left as a student.

In other news, there is now a keyboard in the house and my sisters and I have been playing it like crazy. Its awesome to have a new instrument to play with.. too bad we all suck at playing it. But I am slowly (very very slowly) improving due to the help of my mentor tee hee hee. If only it was as easy as Jay chou makes it look. Speaking of which, the concert DVD of his that I bought has already arrived and I must say my fave Jay is Jay singing 甜甜的. Very cool. Progress on my guitar is nil. I dont think i'm getting anywhere and if anything I'm going backwards. Too much on my plate?

Tomorro is Oday, so it should be fun. Please don't let me get sunburnt and tanned!! Need to figure out what to wear too.. hmmm... O and my uni timetable is CRAP in the first week/when there is no tutes I have a 5 hour break on mondays. How stupid this that! And I can't even go shopping because this year is the year of savings and I so cannot afford to spend, especailly since I wanna get an acoustic guitar. Maybe I should just add it to the list of expensive things that I want. Maybe I should get it when I'm overseas end of this year/beginning of next year. Yeah, another holiday that needs to be saved for, no wonder I have no tangible assets.

OKay its getting late time for bed.. aim for tomorro morning is to get up and gym at 8am (hey I'm still here... U could at least wait until i'm gone before u laugh at me!)

Nic is Back =)

All I have is U

It's almost 1am and when everyone other sane person out there is trying to sleep.. I need to talk. I know everyone else has work tomorro morning or is somehow busy with something else so all I really have right now is you.

Dont know why I'm feeling like this when I looked at those words. A conversation brought up my past (no nothing juicy to tell) and just led me back to all those old emails. If I ever wanted to remind myself of the person I was 6 years ago Hotmail has the answers. All those emails from all those people that once upon a time constructed my entire world. So much that was not forgotten.. but just burried deep deep within my memories. And those words that I thought would not hurt me ever again.. they still hurt. They hurt only because I never knew U of all people would think of me as that sort of person. Because you, I thought was someone who understood me... at least u always said u did. And I guess because you, who once was always there.. drifted to become a distant shadow. Was it my fault?.. The past should stay there and I shall never know.

Cannot let my thoughts carry me away and instead I shall resort to sleep to drown out the questions.. afterall tomorro is another day.

Kept you waiting

Sorry to have kept u all waiting. Then again these days I think only I read my blog...
I dont quite know what have been pre-occupied with lately. I guess just a little bit of everything.


Started both my language classes already and they are both quite different to what I had in mind. I'm kinda very very disappointed at my mandarin class, just because its not a challenge. Its not a challange AT ALL. And after much consideration I'm just gonna stay in this class and take it as writing practise. I'll only do the one semester tho.. then I mite consider doing the diploma next year or maybe doing a diploma at uni.. mite be more challenging and worthwhile. In contrast my korean class is fun and I am really enjoying it. Even tho it doesnt come naturally I can at least say I'm trying and taking the first steps.Starting from the very beginning for korean is quite refeshing really. badabababa I'm lovin' it!

Metro-ed last night for the first time in what 3-4 months. For the first time in 2008 and the first proper time for a long while. I had a good night. I don't know why I enjoyed it so much really. Maybe it was the absence or perhaps the lingering familiarity. Was a good night for me with a few unexpecteds. But with that said.. today I am feeling the exhaustion. Saturday was a full day for me.

Everyone is back from their holidays now.. well almost everyone. Uknow what that means... uni will be starting soon. But I don't mind it really, as long as the time doesnt pass by too quickly. Kinda looking forward to it.. even the nights studying (Yer I know I will take these words back later). But that doesnt mean I don't want the holiday time!! Must make the most of the last few weeks.

Gah ok done with blogging for now.. until a later date ...

Limits to freedom

Much has happened in the past few days... but the last few days seem so far away now. All just a blury picture and only the purest memories shine through. Maybe because strangely enough I seem to have no plans for the next 3 weeks. No plans at all. Well I kinda intended on looking for a job for the next 3 weeks. But I wanted something part-time or casual. And I still have not written up my resume. Wasn't I the one who was begging for time before.. now that I have it.. I am clueless as to what to do with it. I must make the most of it. But how? Can u teach me?

I had dinner with Tammy and Ruth last Wednesday. Those two girls are hilarious!! We ate at Taka's in Shafto Lane. I always have trouble getting to Shafto. remember there was this once when I went with Canh.. it took us 2 hours to find the place and we only found it because we asked someone and they drew a MAP for us. But yes.. back to dinner.. I think we stay in Taka's for like 2-3hours just chatting and the time flew by so quickly. It was interesting and I learnt a lot more about the two girls which was very cool. Ruth with her mogu? LOL. We then headed down to utopia for dessert. It was a nice refreshing night. OoO it took photos on my fone. But they never turned out. When I put it onto lappy, they were all blurry =(. Maybe because of the lack of lighting at night.

Also I remember earlier on in the day I had gone to pay for my mandarin course enrolment. Yes, I am now also officailly enrolled in mandarin (starts this week). But yeah.. since I was in the city a bit earlier than our planned time for dinner.. I did a bit of shopping (for tammy.. coz I know I said I was planning to save and save I shall). Anyway I walked into target then I saw 2 people walking out. The girl looked like she had just stuffed something under her jumper. AND COME ON ITS LIKE 37 DEGREES WHO WEAR JUMPERS... unless.. The alarms went off. The two people had just shop lifted target and were walking briskly out. Notice not running... WALKING. Why? Well, the security/bag checking lady said it herself, she had no back up. No-one to chase them back, no defence against the two shoplifters and all she could do was watch their back as they walked out into the distance. I was quite shocked really.. is this really what happens on a day to day basis?

GaH.

I'm sitting here.. feeling bored and useless. Chinese New Year is comming. But this year wont be the same. Just not the same. It will be filled with a sense of loneliness. Getting sick of fighting. Need a change. Need something new. Most importantly.. I need to stop thinking.

.Midoyo.