Can't sit still.

Must move. from. this. chair. every. 5 minutes. Gah. I don't know how I used to do it. I just can't seem to focus and study. I know I get like this every now and then. Its always when I don't get my fix of social-ness. Easy answer right? SO GO OUT?!?! *sighs* not so easy. I should have been out yesterday when the whole world was. But what was I doing? Figetting at home. Lame.

Only 3 exams stand in the way of me and graduation. I can't believe that time has really gone by so quickly. The other day I was walking thru the uni.. handing in my last assignment. And it hit me... soon this uni wouldn't be my other home. It won't be mine anymore. hehehe but yes.. I do have my honours year- if i'm planning to continue.

On the note of graduation. I have no idea which one I should attend. Econs or Arts (Psych). Honestly I don't think I know anyone from either. Must be a result of me being such a hermit. *sulks*. So maybe it should just come down to colours. I think the colours are pink and blue. Someone correct me if I'm wrong. I'm kinda excited about graduation day... its like my second birthday lol. All the hard work to be paid off like that. I think I'm going to be looking for a photographer too. Mite have to find friends of friends or something... I am offering lunch for being my photographer lol too little? I just want to take some nice shots around the uni. I wanna get a UWA jumper too and take photos around the uni with it as well. Make up for all the lack of camwhoring this year. Well there is still a while away till that happens. AND even though I'm begining to forget ... I ACTUALLY HAVE TO PASS THE EXAMS TO GRADUATE RIGHT!

Been a bit of a hectic week last week. Handed in 60% lab report. Quality- unsure now.. after handing it in my group discussed what we wrote in our discussions. I feel dumb. The presentation was that day too. It when quite ok I think. I ended up writing the opening of my speech on my palm tho... and looked at it *shudders in shame*. But other then that I think it was good. The class played the game I asked them to so yay! Then on Wednesday was the music concert performance. OMG I was soooooooo scared it wasn't funny. At the time of the concert, I still had not figured out when to stop for the solo piece in the middle +.+. And because of that I stuffed up mid performance- and continued again on track. Ali, Edshi and Janice came to watch. I thank them ^-^ and applogise for them having to endure it. I had an awesome night tho. Dinner afterwards was hilarious and so homely- I don't know how to describe the feeling other than I could just be myself. Anyways thanks guys. And then finally- my last assignment had to be handed in on Friday. An esemble report that I thought would be easier than it was. I wrote it twice. How annoying. But it got done- as they do. And that was my week. *phew* looking back on it now it seems like an awful lot to do in a week. But that is good. I feel productive.

I think thats all the ramblings I have in me at the moment. Stay tuned for exam depression. Bleh. So predictable right. lol but then 6 months break here I come XD

Shall see u soon my trustly blog-ears.

Leedy

hMmmm. I wonder why I didn't realise it earlier. Leederville is quite an awesome little place. Last night was only my second time there. The first was to get t Rudy's 21st last year. I had "whereis.com"-ed it and gotten majorly lost that time. It seriously took me an hour to get there and by that time I had given up already. Thank god I had my trusty map. Or not. Its more like thank god I called my trusty Caz. LOL after 2 seconds on the fone with Caz I was heading towards leederville. ANYWAYS. Beside the point. Leederville is actually a really awesome little suburb. I love how everything is still open so "late" on a weekday. It feels very community-ish. I have a feeling I'll be going there again soon hahaha only because (trying to defend myself) I want to take my cousins.

I had dinner last night with Tammy, Alan and Ruth. We went to Sienna's. I really liked the food. Of course, Sienna's is known for their good food but also awesome prices. Ok so I am broke this week ... majorly (as usual) but all the dishes were like half price. I had the Rigatoni. It was so good that I forgot to take a foto before I ate. And gone too fast that the waiter too my plate before I could take a photo of the empty plate mmmMmmMm but it was good.

But last night of course was more then the food. It was the awesome company. Both Tammy and Alan are grown up people now... (they always were but.. I want to make them sound older :) ... both who are working full time. Tho. By the sounds of it I still don't think thats called working Alan! lol kidding. Alan is loving his job. And I think Tammy has one of the most desirable jobs in the world lol. Or maybe its cos I still hold on to the idea of working with Tammy at the same company :). Either way I had an awesome time last night. Everything just seemed nice. Conversation was hilarious! That's what you get when there are 3 girls and one guy! Twas a good dinner with good company.

Upcomings--->
My lab report. 60%. Should start now. Like now now. But i'm scared. Gah I promise I will start on results after his post.

After talking about it for like 2 months. My cousins are coming on Saturday. So I'll be trying to juggle taking them out with the rest of my life. Should be awesome :)

Exam timetable came out today. Two exams on the 9th and one on the 17th of June. Who wants to celebrate with me when we're done? Lunch Caz? Since it is after our OB exam.

Ok enough random ramblings.
Stay good boys and girls.
Laters

Attached

I realise this about myself now. I am way too attached. To things, to people, to memories, to expectations... to the world. I guess everyone could say they have similar problems. But I just find it so hard to let go. Especially to people... letting go of people that I should because they have already let go and I am no longer who I am to them. *sighs* This is actually not a depressing post guys.. its more an attempt to proclaim change.

The reason why I have realised my problem with over attachment is because last weekend my wallet was stolen. It was stolen at work and maybe it is partially my fault because I left it behind the counter like I always do instead of hiding it in a draw or something. But having my wallet stolen cut me so much.. because it was my everything. Something like the feeling of losing your phone. I had memories in there, cards in there, contacts in there... it was my life. My everything. And to know that it was no longer mine, no longer with me, I was confused and disappointed. After a whole night of worrying, disbelief and frantic searching for possibility .. I gave up.. and after that I gave up sulking too. I guess its easier to move on and get a head start at rebuilding my everything. Called the banks, the government institutions and visited the police. Slowing moving on with everything. Even tho every now and then I would still reach into my bag and have a heart attack because my wallet isnt there!.. only to realise derrrr! I know. You guys might be thinking Noelle its just a wallet.. big deal right? well .. it only fits.. I am way too attached to things/people. So I will try not to be anymore.

Following this event, Ali called me out for lunch after classes on Thursday. We went to poppo's. I actually didn't have a very good impression on this place the very first time I ate there. I don't remeber why. But I actually liked it last Thursday. Their sushi is like a masterpiece!!! Definately a very yummy piece of art. And I had the bibimbap... which is suprising because its not a usual for me. I usually go for the kimchi soup. The bibimbap was ok, quite good really. I would most probably go back again. Thanks Ali for lunch.

This picture doesn't do the sushi justice!

Bibimbap and collection of food XD Yummmm

After lunch, I helped Ali with some shopping chores lol finding what he needed. Which was awesome cos we actually found the stuff!! Anyways afterwards Ali convinced me to go have a look at wallets. I wasn't going to find a replacement anytime soon.. just because I was still attached to the idea of getting mine back somehow/someway and I am broke having lost the money in my wallet. But we went to Myers for a look. At first there was no luck. All the wallets were leathery and Aunty looking. But when all hope was gone.. it was there. The wallet that fit all my criteria without even knowing the criteria!- minus of course the price. We walked out of Myers and I was determined to save up for it. I might have got it like a month later after saving. But Ali insisted on going back. He bought it for me. Said it is an early birthday present. LOL even wished me happy birthday. My birthday is in like 6 months. I love it to bits.. but I can't help but feel guilty. I didn't want to be a burden and have people spend so much on me. I didn't want to be that person who's problems affected someone else. But all I can say is Thankyou Ali. And sorry for being that burden.

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為什麼我不是她.