At a Crossroad

Sorry its been a while. I would love to explain what exactly I was spending my time on.. but seriously I can't. I haven't really been doing anything actually.

Just working, eating and sleeping. Talk about routine.

Just this week.. actually thats a lie... all my life I have doubted myself and what I want to do with my life. I guess its because I have graduated and now I get asked more than ever what I want to do with my future. And I really don't know at all. I don't know what I want. I don't know what I like. I don't know what suits me. I don't know what I can do. And more than anything I don't know what is my forever.

Now that I know all this does it help me at all? No. Not really. The more I think about it, the more I am confused. I dont want to be stuck in a 9-5 routine job. I don't want to be another girl in uniform. I just don't know anymore and I'm getting really scared. I wish that I could find the answer to all my questions soon.. but I know that its not very likely that all these questions will just come to me.

Taiwan. Oh Taiwan. Yes it is coming up soon. I'm a bit scared of getting from the airport to the apartment (which has been confirmed *yays* thanks to yuvina's house hunting skills). Yuvina reckons I should just bus it to the main station and then taxi the rest.. but considering that I'm now going to be going alone (Nic is no longer coming with me) I think I prefer to just taxi the whole way.. i mean sure its like 10 times more expensive.. but I think its safer that way. Plus it would mean that I wouldn't have to worry about knowing where to get off the bus. Getting closer.. my application to TaiDa was sent today :)

Parentals are getting more and more worried about me going away. I mean that is fair.. Its me going to a place they have never been to before.. and they don't know what to expect. I just hope they won't worry too much more :(

Gah I think I'm gonna go do something productive-ish and print out some maps.

Hopefully I will see you all soon XD