Its all just words

New Habits for 2008..

Bottles to hold my thoughts and wishes

Why are summer days so humid. Makes me wanna sleep (under air conditioning of course). So I am Officailly enrolled in the Korean short course in Tafe rite now. How awesome rite? I am totally looking forward to it. Only problem is that if there are not enough students to fill the class it might to be run.. so I better not get so excited yet rite.

I have to wait till next tuesday to be able to enrol into chinese. Something about a specific day which they have allocated to enrol in a certficate in an applied language. Ah well, as long as it happens its all good. I'm also scheduled for a hair cut on Tuesday. I guess its not much of a hair cut... more like just a trim. I need to redo my fringe and try to get rid of the split ends that are coming back. Strange really.. my hair was so tame in Singapore... ahah maybe i'm just not suited for the weather here.. any excuse to live abroad for a while will do aye.

When shopping the other day with a few of the guys to get ed's bday prez. I think we were quite successful. Even had time for a massage in between our hard work as well. hehehe Shall post the photos up at the bottom. The day was an adventure from price checking to hunting for the rite gift. And gettting something to represent each of us in his 21st Bday prez. Involving perfume wars that I totally didnt start! Yummy Korean food for lunch. heheh The day b4 I had said I wanted to eat at Seoul BBQ and it just turned out Fel Bel read my mind =) and I thought I was the "psychologist"! Only thing that could be faulted that day was the heat. Even Lisa showed up after work to join us for a while.. and gave me a lift home yay no hot bus for me =)

Been hibernating due to the heat lately... Nothing much to but WATCH DRAMAS =)

Watching "Why WHy Love" rite now.. and I am half way thru it already. Its petty good.. kinda emphases the fact that only the people who u trust and value the most are able to hurt u the most.

Hmmm I wonder if neone know if you can do music as a first year unit without any prerequistes? I have one moe first year unit to do as an elective and since the way my econs units are structured for the money and banking major, I can't do Jap in the second semester. Meaning I have one more unit to do and I dont wanna waste the oppotunity.. I want to be able to learn something that I want and have interest in. I won't be wasting my time on courses that are easy just to push up my GPA.

我們的歌 is now playing in the background.. and for some reason.. I feel at peace. hmmm

Leaving U all with the photos

Lunch at SeouL BBQ... Hmm I thought I was

gonna try the Bibimbap there.. what happened?

Fel, ALi and Caz.

Fel and Caz: totally used to camwhoring

Ali: "Can u Like NOT?!"

Caz, Me, FeL.. the wind in our hair and all

Tee hee hee Miss I mean.. Mr Ali.. smelled like a girl that day too.. thanks to me =)

Caz on her massage chair.. It seemed to work all areas LOL

Catch Yas all laters =)

These days

This is probably the third time that I have started this blog post. The last few time I had typed out the whole post only to realise that blogger would not connect and that my post could not even be saved and therefore was all completely a waste of time.

So fingers crossed this works.

These days seem to be passing me by so quickly... yet at the same time so slow. Nothing much interesting has happened on my side tho. Prob coz I've been working everyday and every night which kinda makes it difficult to do anything at all.

Have gone through two weeks of gymming now tho. I think its starting to have an effect.. like I'm not as tired as I used to be. I guess I can really think in the gym especially with the music blasting in my ears and and I'm trying to keep up with the machine. Still contemplating whether or not to join for another month. Since I didn't go by a contract I only joined for a month and it costs a heck of a lot... well its a lot for me. But considering I do feel better gymming.. it mite be worth ding another month's worth.. at least until uni starts again. I dunno if I will have time to gym during uni times. Which reminds me I haven't sorted out my timetable for uni yet. Shall have to do that soon. Hopefully I won't be a loner again this year.. I always seem to have breaks at weird times where everyone is in class *cries*.

Tomorrow I shall go an attempt to enroll into my language courses in Tafe. Hopefully it all goes to plan. I went in last week but the offices close at 4pm and i strolled in at 4:10. That was suckky! So lets see how it goes tomorro. And I have to do a skills recognition test too I think.. ahhh my Chinese reading and writing skill have so gone down the toilet recently. Hope I don't do TOO shamefully. I better learn a lot from these courses tho coz I'm paying quite a bit for them!

Its strange but I kinda feel a sense of Independence recently. How so? Well, its strange for me to be thinking of doing all these extra circulars ALONE. I usually need the security of having someone do it with me. I dunno.. its scary but at the same time.. I know it will be good for my future? Does that make any sense? Lets hope I do okay and all goes well yeah.

I really really REALLY wanna do hip hop again this year .. I think classes have already started or are going to start soon... but the thing is.. doing all these extras cost money.. and rite now I just can't afford it all. I guess hip hop mite just have to wait.. maybe I shall wait for the mid-year classes. But watching all the moves in the cool video clips seriously doesn't help.. *envy*

Still so much to accomplish and the holidays are slowly withering away. I NEED to do all my scarp booking already!!! I haven't printed and sorted the photos from 2006's holiday with Lisa.. It need to be done... soon okay Lisa.. soon!

I think I'll end this LONG post with a dream/ambition I kinda just realised I really desire. I want to study abroad. Like I'm serious. It mite sound easier than it seems to accomplish.. but if u were in my position I think u'll realise how hard it would be for me to actually do considering my circumstances. I dunno. I don't care. I will study abroad even if it is only for 2 months. I will do it. Looking at prob when I graduate (coz I graduate mid year I have some time to play with before I hopefully can do honors). Its really something I want to do, and do while I am young.

Turning 21 this year... so many ambitions.. so many plans.. Lets hope 2008 will be a good year even tho from the looks of my last post it wasn't such a pretty start.

Aja Aja Hwaiting!!

Silence

As the warm wind blew across her face she knew that it was time to let go. .

Each day entails another fight.. another challenge.. another battle. And then sometimes it just dawns on you that maybe what you have been fighting for may just not be worth the continuious stuggle. After all the end result may not even be what you desired in the first place, and sometimes you just know its better to let go. There will be other battles to fight so this one has to be let go of. It may seem hard at first because you know that you wouldnt have fought for it in the begining if you didn't think it was worthy. But still what if letting go is the only option you have left?

... Holding on would just make her endure more pain. More unneccessary pain. With that in mind she let go of all she knew. She let go of what once provided her the security in knowing she could be herself. She let go and became the distant memory.

Lost for Words

Its funny how when I can't talk properly I immediately think of blogging. Why can't I talk? Well.. I have an ulcer at the back of my throat that hurts THIS much. So therefore speaking is painful, not impossible.. but very painful.

I've only been away from my blog for about a week and a bit, and yet to me it seems like ages. Accomplishments this week? very little. Just more lazy mornings sleeping in and late nites drama-ed away. I think i've said i'm bored way too much lately.. but how can those words slip from my mouth so easily. Have I already forgotten the sleepless nights up till 4am cramming for the next exam. The days on end spent researching my assignment topics? All those hardships seem to be in the distant past already as I sit here using the word "bored". In those days there was no time for BORED! I guess its just phases in a cycle of a student's like.. we are currently in the upswing, having just recovered from the recent trough. Its all economics.

Its actually been years. I cant recollect the last time I was there. I can't recollect my last memory of being at the beach. But I know for sure I had been craving it as the years passed. In the last 2 day.. I have been to the beach twice. Both such different experiences. Its strange how the night and day contrasts. Last nite, I went out for supper after work with Canh. Supper was not too impressive, we were kinda very disappointed at the food. Anyways, after playing a few games of basketball at timezone we didnt know where to go what to do. So the idea of the beach came up. We drove down to Hillaries. The sand was cool the waves so serene yet aggressive and the wind was just right. I can't believe its been so long since I been to the beach. I missed it. The stars were so clear and bright that night to. Through all the darkness I felt a sense of security that I hadn't felt for a while...

Since yesterday's experience at the beach went so well, Canh and I decided to move our jog from the park to the beach in the morning. So I woke up extra impossibly early and Canh drove us to the beach for a "jog". So it kinda ended up as being powerwalking plus running from the water that was about to soak our shoes. It was a good seesh. We walked from one end of the beach to the other an all the way back. It was hard.. and hot.. but oh so worth it. Mite have to go a bit earlier next time tho coz it was gettin way too hot and the sun is gonna make me darker!
This mite come to be a routine. It would be a good thing to get used to dont u think?

OKay, I think I am done for the day. What is everyone doing for new years eve countdown? So far I dont think I have ne plans... lets just see what happens then I guess..

Enjoy the last few days of 2007 coz the rein of 2008 is about to begin.

Mediocre

I looked down at my hands and what do I see... Talentless hands. Absolutely talentless! ... Yea I just recently watched Jay Chou's Secret (Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi). Amazed by the ease at which his fingers float on the black and white artist's canvas. In awe of his talent and skill.. how he could do it all one handed and even with his eyes closed. Jay even directed the movie which I thought was very well done, quite surprised really. Needless to say I feel utterly talentless! So much for not wanting to settle for mediocre.. I am the absolute definition of mediocre.. and it pains me to think so.


If you don't know already I have a thing for people who are artistically talented. Particularly people who are able to play an instrument (eg PIANO) and dancers. There is something about their art that moves me. I think it is the knowledge of the dedication that these people but into to become holders of this skill. It is the patience and dedication to perfection that I am drawn to. Wishing that I could be just as dedicated and not so half-hearted in my attempts to learn the jack of all trades.



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In other news I have been home for about a week and a bit now. Kinda Just settling back into reality. The reality of working almost every single day. Which I guess Isn't tooo bad since I really have nothing better to do just yet. Still need to sort out all the stuff that I'm planning to do next year. E.g calling TAFE to ask about the chinese language course (see how much it costs first yea!) and the Korean short course (YaY Korean) and checking out the local gym (lets see if I can be motivated enuff.. ok more like lets see if I can afford it first). But I guess all this has to be done after the chrissy and new year break aye.

Pic Of my 42.5kgs worth of Luggage (not even fined for it either) taken on my Phone's Camera =)

Just as I have come home, many people are getting ready to fly off for their holidays. Trying to catch up with them all before they leave, coz I know they'll have such an awesome time overseas. JacQue!!! <-- U are gonna have an absolute Blast, esp since ur going with Will rite?!.. dont forget to visit The Face Shop in Penang (cheaper than The Face Shop in Singapore due to the currency differences). I think The Face Shop is my fav beauty and cosmetics shop and I'm disappointed they dont sell their products online. If I had known that earlier I would have bought more!!

Really need to catch up with a lot of ppls. Which means recovering and dusting off my organisational skill. TAMMY where art thou!! LOL. but yes. neone free.. let me know I'm up for catching up whenever I can. Very vague huh. Must be the tiredness getting to me..

Guess its bed time then. I always intend on blogging.. but I keep wanting to save it for next time and by the time its time to blog.. poof.. its all gone!! ah wells

Nites.

1. 4. 10. tee hee hee

.. these eyes have seen..

so much more than I could have ever imagined. This trip will forever be remembered. It is always going to be in my heart, as I feel as if I have learnt so much about myself and tried so many new things.. new experience and faced old fears.




Even though I wish I could have extended (especially since I just found $350 that I must have forgotten I hid in my wallet). I guess I am really grateful for this trip... this time for me to be alone and reflect. I wasnt alone much... but on the plane I finally felt a sense of security and independence. It was something I really needed. Needed.... in order to finally say.. I just want to be Noelle... I just want to be me...



The last few days in Malaysia were a bit hectic with me running around trying to get as much shopping done as possible and sorting out crap with my fone. My fone was quite disappointing. It has a small crack in it and the guy said it was replaceable... but complications arose being the only white one sold in the whole place. It was quite stressful... but i wanted white and I guess that was the decision I have to live with.



But Still great memories in Malaysia.. the food!!! and the company.. and the change of environment. heheh and taking my underage cousins out clubbing... hahaha bu technically I was underage too.



There are a lot of people I am so grateful to for this experience. I cant thank the people in Singapore enough, especially Nic. Without you this trip really would never have been the same. And to my cousins and Relatives in Penang . My cousins who went shopping with me even tho she was on study break and meant to be studying for an exam. She came all the way from KL to Penang for Tom Yum with me hehehe. So grateful. Even though I know I am quite a pessimistic person.. this experience has taught me to look from a different light. And of course I can't forget my Parents who let me go and helped me with my finances. I know that you guys sacrificed time and effort for me and I appreciate every second.




With this experience, I look forward to the new year. A year of changes. I feel like the same person.. but at the same time.. different.




I have seen the sunrise break over the sea of water. I have met great people and learnt so much from them. I have had the chance to get to know friends even better. I have faced the heights and tried so many new things. I have seen with these eyes inimaginable talent and the beauty of a bright city which dares not sleep at night.

... Thankyou


Now that I'm home its time for new goals. 我會好好加油的!

I hope that This trip will always serve as a reminder to me of the good times.. and especially when I'm down I hope to look to these memories and find the feeling I have now...

I am home now.. I know I missed home even though I wanted to stay away for a while longer.
after two weeks... my bed is calling..
Goodnight. I wont miss the memories because they are with me. Sweet Dreams.

The days seem to fly.. and U realise

You reaslise that everyone is now grown up. We are no longer the girls who sat one we swings under the tree and braided each other's hair. We are no longer those girls who went out in clans and took the bus to shop and get our parents to pick us up afterwards. Its a weird but good feeling as all my cousins now drive to take us out. Its weird not having all my cousins here.. as half of them are in other states in malaysia studying or working. Its weird to imgine that we are all growing up. I just want to be 19 .. for just a little bit longer (I know I'm 20 already k!)


Yesterday I did my first mass shopping in malaysia. and by mass shopping i mean MASS shopping I think 8 articles of clothing, $300RM worth of korean and HK dramas, CDs.. another pair of shoes.. and stuff I can't remember nemores. Love my purchases.... but I'm afaird I'm gonna have to ship the stuff back coz I was already over the limit when I was commin form Singapore to Penang. I have a feeling that I've told u this b4... neways....


The other day I went to see my cousin sing. She does that at her job and man is she awesome!!! There was a guy singer there too he was good too.. good guitar skills! So envious!


Last nite I went out with 3 of my cuzs. Was an INTERESTING nite. hehehe first we started at this place which was completely EMPTY!!~ sooo shameful! But we left after like 2 mins to this place called GLO. It wasnt pack initially.. but slowly the crowd came in. Ordered some long island teas again.. the first one tasted like lemonade.. so my cuz asked for more shots to be put into it....... BAD idea! It was sOOooO strong... prob just as strog as the one I had at Timbre with Nic and Lu Hui. Anyway. My cousin got bored... and she wanted to play a game (I started to get scared). She dared me to go take a picture with a random... as in go up to a random and ask for a picture to be taken with them. I was Hell reluctant and didnt want to play. I asked her to go first... and beng the pro she is.. she did it just like that!.. Now I was REALLY SCARED!! I was thinkin wtf man how am I gonna go this. Anyway, I was pretty tipsy at the time and my cousin is really convincing. She picked out a guy for me and I went up to ask him "Hey, can I take a picture with u? Its for a Dare.". He agreed!!! He was like Yea no probs! *shock horror*. I was gonna post up the pic here up my camera isn't being detected on my cuz's comp. anyway took the photo and when back to myu table.. which was onlyu like 5 steps away from him. Later in the night he came up to me again and asked me to see the photo.. I showed it to him and yea he bought me a drink. He even bought my cousin one too. Pretty nice guy aye.. but I dont even know his name.


There was also a bridal show going on that nite. It was hairdressers showing off their bridal hair creations. Yeah I met a hairdresser that nite too.. I think he said he's name was Roy.. dunno.. It was an interesting nite.
My cousins we laughing at me coz they so thought i was drunk I WAS SOOOO NOT.. but thats just it.. no one believes you... she took a vid of me.. SO NOT WASTED!

My fone is proving to be a disappointment. I cant find the pruple one anywhere. So I'm either settling for the white one or the black one... sorry Ali if I get the same fone as U in the same colour. U should have comfort in knowing it was the purple one I wanted =( I hate settling!!

OKay.. I think thats it for now... need to decided if I wanna extend my trip soon... *sighs* things to consider.. my cousins want to go out on wednesday nite again to play... so they're asking me to extend... we'll just have to see.

Check yas laters... Missing U all... but why no updates?