String of Thoughts

Have not blogged recently ( I do actually realise I start each post like this these days). I think its because I never have an overreaching theme to my posts anymore. I think I've started posts and just gave up half way thru just because I would not feel like blogging anymore half way through. Oh wells.. I decided to blog a string of thoughts.. just anything that comes to mind... not like I dont do that already.

Sitting through endless ilectures is so tedious. The thing is i've been to all these lectures, just rewatching these lectures to help with the study. I'm re-doing all the psych lectures.. and at first I didnt think it was that much. I only had 8 psych lectures this year.. so not tooooo bad rite.. oo but they are 2 hour lectures! So, so far I have done.. 6.8/8 lectures. What happened to the 0.2 of the seventh lecture? umm.. I'm doing it now while i'm blogging >.<

I actually quite worried about this set of exams. I dunno if its the fact that they are all consecutive again that is worrying me, but more that I just don't know how I'm going to do in these exams. Particularly psych, clueless on what they could/would ask.

On that note I think I shall publicise my hibernation here. I am making an effort to not go out from now to the end of my exams on the 27th of November 2008. This includes dinner and lunches. And arrangements that I have made prior shall be kept, so don't worry Tammy I am still up for lunch on the day we planned. So my life for the next 3 weeks shall revolve around work, study and gym. I guess that's a good thing. I need to get back into my gym regime anyway. Been a bit slack recently just because its too cold to get out of bed recently. Not good.. I'm gaining weight back that I previously lost.

Jie Jie is in New York right now. I'm so jealous. I wish I was there with her. She sounds like she is having an awesome time and is shopping like crazy. I can't believe she told me she was sick of shopping the other day *rolls eyes*. I'm gonna be super jealous when she goes to Japan.

Which reminds me.. I think I wanna continue learning Jap. I mite have to do it in Tafe or something though because it doesn't fit in my uni units properly. But I really love learning Jap. This mite mean I have to give up on Korean temporarily. I found out curtin is the only place which offers a proper Korean course, so I think Korean mite have to wait a while. I'm quite disappointed at that really. But I guess since I have learnt a lot more Jap this semester it's more practical to continue with Jap. ii desu ne!

Man it's gettin late.. better go and finish off the stupid topic on interest rates for monetary economics (yup finished the seventh ilecture already) before I go to bed.
Good nite guys.. hope you all are studying hard.

Till another day... wait for me?

One Second later...

So I know I have been MIA recently from this so called blog of mine. I'm finding it hard to blog coz seriously everyone knows this life of mine is quite a boring one. Nothing ever happens.. and sometime I understand that something happening may not be a good thing... so don't hope for change.. It's not usually good.

Yesterday.
I don't know why I was so tired yesterday. I finished my lab report earlier than I had expected which was definately awesome for me. So I spent most of the day DBSKing in my break from work. It was very much needed especially coz the assignments kept coming and still have not stopped.. its exhausting.. but even more exhausting to stop and think about it all. That and the fact that someone has been rubbing DBSK love in my face* cough cough* mish! *cough.. choke cough*
Anyway I went in for the dinner shift and I must have been so tired from the lack of sleep the night before that I went straight through a roundabout without seeing a car approaching on my left. It was so close to hitting me.. and hitting me (my driver's door) straight on. The person braked .. so hard u could almost hear the screeching tires. Blinded by their headlights for a split second as I didnt manage to stop. I drove off leaving the car in shock... but realising the error of my actions and with an enormous guilt of putting another individual in such a state of trauma.
My sister was in the car with me too.. I think I scared her majorly.. maybe because she saw the car coming and I didn't.
One second later I think this would have been a different story. But I was definately awaken by the bright lights of the 4wd.

... life is definately taken for granted sometimes ...

Eight Letter Word Stamped on My Forehead

You tell yourself not to get ur hopes up. Don't expect anything from it at all.. you did it only to see how far you could get... but somehow no matter how much u repeated those words in your head, none of it actually got thru.

Then without noticing you let urself... you let urself daydream a little and then u begin to imagine yourself in the situation.. imagining the possibility. AND then worse of all U plan... you plan based on your expectations.

In actual fact, you had just set a trap for urself. A trap where all the pieces of your house of card have just collapsed in your face and you're left wondering how U let urself get to this stage.. let urself want it in the first place.

I got the email from Deloittes today.. after waiting for the call the whole day and rushing home from my Jap class (which I was late to). My application would not be processed any further for the Dream Team Competition 2008. Disappointed is the understatement of the century.. but I don't regret applying of course.

Just made me think and question myself... I dont think my Hong Kong Internship plans are going to go ahead. I will still try for them.. but I'm just not sure about it at all anymore. I'm really not sure about any internship plans actually...

Feeling scarred (by that word) and vulnerable..

Two days of progress?

So hibernation happened. Turned off everything for 2 days. Yups a whole two days.. that's my story and I'm sticking to it. It was kinda a relief at times to know that it was off. I dunno why, but yesterday walking to the bus stop It felt good knowing that my phone was off. It was kinda free-ing. heheh doesn't mean I want to do it again tho. Its good once in a while, but I'm glad I'm back into the civilised world.

So what did I accomplish? Well... I finished that cover letter! .. AND.. I submitted my application for dream team last night too. A whole day early can U believe it? [Fingers crossed that I get accepted for the competition because I really do feel that this would be a good challenge to know what it's like out there, and whether or not I can cope.] On top of that, I got some study done, a bit of readings and sleep. So it was a good two days for my academics. Hopefully going to continue the trend for the weekend, even tho there seems to be a bit planned for Saturday.

5 weeks of uni have passed already. I think I have learnt quite a lot, but even so I am falling a bit behind. So plan... TRY HARDER! STUDY MORE!

I think I'm broker than I've ever been. I don't understand how tho, I haven't been out, haven't gone shopping, haven't even lunched for such a long long long loooong time. Its all crazy! SAving money sucks. But I guess its for Taiwan plans so all worth it in the end?!? Rite? (someone convince me that I'm doing the right thing coz I really feel like going on a YeaAsia splurge).

hmmm... do you sometimes feel that there is something bigger out there planned for you. I dunno why this feeling sweeps over me from time to time. I'm excited, but maybe it's me just daydreaming. hehe still good daydreams.

Nope.. too bad.. I was gonna upload a picture of an empty gelare's waffle plate, but I'm too lazy rite now. Went waffling 2 weeks in a row now (on Tuesday of course.. saving remember). Once with Nic, Lu and Mishie, and then this week with Caz and Mishie. O btw Caz did u actually end up finishing that question before we went waffling ? =p

Okay now I know I'm just drifting with my thoughts so I better go do something more productive.. like gym or sleep.

Laters

GaH!

I was in such a rush this morning.. coz I thought I would be late for uni. Forced myself to get up just to make it to one stupid lecture on Monetary Econ. Get to the lecture theatre.. opened the door, thinking I would be just that tad bit late... to find.. AN EMPTY LECTURE THEATRE!.. at first I actually thought I missed the class, as in I thought I was an hour late and had to go home. But the reality of it was that I was a whole hour early! Class is not till 12 and I'm sooo annoyed.

Finally finished my resume last night. Was quite an achievement for me. So does that mean I can start applying for HK internships and Vac work? Not quite! Now I have to write cover letters! Oh it's all never ending. On top of that I'm falling behind on all the uni stuff already. Jap is getting really hard and I have a test on Katagana on Monday (eppz). Readings to do are infinite and all the assignments are coming out from no-where. What have I been doing with my time?!?

I think I feel like going on a two day hibernation. Meaning turning off my fone and net for 2 days. Maybe I shall. I guess those who know how to reach me will still have contact but yes.. it sounds like a good idea. Hope it helps me catch up on everything and stop procrastinating.

Gosh, everyone is really growing up. Like seriously, I can't believe its all happened so fast. The other day I was notified that a really old family friend of mine is getting married at the end of this year. I still remember the days when we all were playing chasey and hide and seek in my backyard. I remember the birthdays 6,7,8,9,10.... and now she's getting married. I know she's happy.

Additionally, a number of my friends have moved out of home recently. Taking that step towards independence, whether it be with a friend or a sibling. Seems like everyone is moving forward with their lives and I'm just static.

gah, ok time to go to class.. otherwise I'll b late even tho I was here an hour early
laters

Student's Life

Some things never change, like cam whoring on Mattilda Bay with Caz

So I haven't properly updated much have I?.... well neither has CAZ!!! hehehe just thought I'd drag someone down with me.. sorry caz. So its back to a student's life for me. Today shall end the second week of uni. This week has been actually quite busy. I can't believe how much has changed this year. I mean studying with MISH in the LIBRARY in the FIRST WEEK OF UNI!! Now if thats not change I don't know what is.

So I guess some of u are wondering how I am coping with my 3 languages now that I'm doing all of them together. Well, actually I'm keeping up and loving them all. I know it may seem a little crazy to do all of them at the same time.. but I think its helping me survive through the "stress" of uni. Jap is taking a lot of my time tho, I think its because I have four hours of Jap class a week. Where as all my other units I only have 2-3 hours. All in all, it's a good challange and I dunno why but this year I am up for a challenge. So Bring it ON!........ Please don't hurt me.

What else is new? hmm not much really.. O I burnt my hand the other day. Pretty much poured hot oil <<< "SHIT">>> my bad....just got freaked out by a 'stranger'... Anyway back to what i was saying...... Edmond is such an awesome person. Just because of that, i'm going to fry him hor fun using my special wok. Ahem.. back to reality, my post just got invaded and I bet you all can guess who invaded it. Yes.. hot oil over my hand and the burn cream managed to heal most of it, cept for some areas I missed. It looks even worse right now than the photo I took a few days ago. I hope it doesn't scar.

Burns =(

I have been attending all those employer talks held at the uni recently and I must say that I am very scared. I feel so little in the world.. so little unworldly. There is so much out there that I don't know. This year I must find Vacation work... my non-existant CV is looking mighty empty .. and non-existant. So I shall be applying for all sorts of places and just hoping that someone will hire me. I just don't know what they expect and I don't know what to expect from interviews. Maybe thats why it's taing me so long to write a CV, because I'm scared. Really scared. On the plus side.. most of the internships and vaction work offered seems to be in another state.. so more travel opportunities? But, then how will HK at the begining of next year fit in with my plans? So much to consider. At the same time I am excited.. excited for the possible future.

Bak to slacking for the night and might do a bit of study b4 I sleep, have Korean class tomorro morning!

OO b4 I go.. new link to Shaun's blog =) Yay new readers

Annyong Hi Gaseyo!

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